I'm Exhausted and I feel guilty
So, about Work. It's OK. It's nice to go and work and interact with people older than 4 years old.
I haven't heard that much Gossip in Forever. You learn a whole new side of the People in this Town. Seriously, what's up with People buying a Pack of Cigarettes for $ 4.35 and then they pay it with Dimes. 44 Dimes to be exact. And then they get pissy at me for giving them 5 Pennies back instead of a Nickel! Ugh, people are weird.
Also, heads up for the Truck Driver buying a 24 Pack of Beer at 6 o'clock in the morning. You're my Hero. Not.
Work is alright. If there wasn't the fact that my Feet are killing me. Yeah, standing in a Gas Station for 9 Hours kinda sucks on the Feet. I used to have Soft and Sexy feet. Now, not so much.
CutiePie has a hard Time adjusting to me working. He just does not like it. He told me that since I started working he's not happy anymore. It broke my Heart. I feel guilty for not being there for him 24 Hours. I'm gone 9 Hours. He misses me and I miss him. I do wonder if I'm a bad Mom for wanting to work and help my Family.
I feel like I'm missing out too much. I'm not there when he needs his Owies to be kissed and to be held when he's tired.
Dear Lord, I feel miserable.
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*hugs* It is rough when a young mom has to go out and get a job in order to help out her family. Have you thought about maybe doing daycare? I went this route after our youngest was born, as we still needed my income, but I didn't want to leave my baby at home. He is now 13, and I am looking at getting a part time job outside the home, but it still tugs on the heart strings even at this age.
(((Hugs))) to you! Whatever decisions we make, we do what we feel is best for our family. Sometimes, our little ones have a difficult time understanding, but, in the long run, you know you are doing what you need to do.
Make the most of your time together and he won't feel left out.
Awww, I am sorry you are sad. However, you should not feel guilty. I am sure your little one will adjust just fine and I hope that it gets better for you.
Good luck!
Big Hugs to you!
Please do not feel guilty. You are doing what you need to do for your family. It is sooo hard, but hang in there and see how it goes.
CutiePie will get over it. Make an extra effort to spend some 'special' time together. Don't feel guilty...its 9 hours a day...not a lifetime. :)
Oh your baby will adjust, though I am not sure you will to all the new and interesting people you are meeting lol. I loved the post it made me giggle. I stay home with my kids all week, and work 11-7 on Fri and Sat. I am not sure if I would stop doing it, if I could financially afford it. As you said sometimes conversation with someone other than a 4 yr old, is good, even when they are irritating and foolish. Best wishes.
{{Hugs}} along with the others. EC dropping in, and glad I found you. There are many options to try to work at home. Start reading some of the work-at-home blogs, and join some of the great Mom networking sites for ideas and friendship. I have some terrific links on my site.
Don't stress, and hope you start feeling better about yourself!
Hugs to you. I had to work when my girls were babies, so I know how you feel. Unfortunately, we are living in a time when two income households are necessary. I do agree with Cindi that you should check out the work at home sites and mom networks. You could find something to do from home and be able to stay with your cutie pie.
When my girls were little and growing up, I worked 24 on and 48 off as a paramedic and it was really hard, too. I remember the tears that would happen on the morning of every 3rd day as I put on my uniform, getting ready for work. Those girls just wailed and cried.
But, like you, I had no choice...we had to eat and keep a roof over our heads. It's what we, as women and mothers, often times have to do.
Mine are grown now and, ironically, I am a housewife. I wish it could have been the other way around...home with them back then and I'd gladly work now.
You will get through this. I wish you the best!
That is one of the many reasons why mother is the greatest? I respect and salute mothers who have to work and at the same time take care of their families - just like my mother. My mother has been working for as long as I remember and at the same time she takes good care of everyone in the family. Of course everything was not well in the beginning but it worked out. We never grew up feeling ignored or neglected. It will take a little bit of time to adjust for everyone. Instead of the 24 hours attention previously, now you just have to manage your time well and make those time spends with cutie pie quality time. You are doing something good for the family and I believe we are all proud of you.
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I said the same thing to my mom when I was, like, 10, and she rearranged her work and all that. Honestly, I don't even remember THINKING it, let alone saying it! He'll be OK, you'll be OK. Do whatever you feel is best for your family!
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