Jealous
I haven't been myself lately.
I feel lonely.
I feel jealous.
I have 2 Friends where I live and a couple of acquaintances. There's a problem though. They're not close friends by all means. They are not my Best Friends. That's what I miss. I look on Myspace and see all of my former best friends living in the same Town. They're all Military, so they got lucky where they got stationed. They Post pictures online and I look at them and wanna cry. I wish I had that kind of Bond with someone. The only best friend I have is my Husband. I love my Husband but it's not the same. As a woman you need someone other than your Husband sometimes. Never mind the Fact that my husband is gone or work a lot. So, life is lonely and filled with jealousy and anger. I admit it, I am depressed. Life feels stuck in a rut and I don't know what kind of rut. I want something to change but don't know how to change it. I am truly stuck. It sucks. It sucks big time. I don't know how to stop that feeling. That thing inside you telling you nobody cares for you. That's how it feels. Like you're all alone in this damn World. I don't like this feeling. Nope, not at all.
2 Talk to Me:
I have been where you are now. My husband and I have moved several times and it can be very lonely. While he has his job and work to keep him busy and help him adapt to his new surroundings, we have to learn our way and find new friends. Not easy as an adult.
It took me a very long time, but I will share with you what helped me the most. Find something that interests you and go out and learn more about it or join clubs that revolve around it. For me, it started with scrapbooking and evolved into sewing. I sign up for classes (even if they're only an hour or so here and there). It makes me feel better to be around people who share the same interest. My other suggestion is to volunteer. It can be at the library, the school, or anywhere else. It is such a feeling of accomplishment, and again, sharing an interest with other people that makes you feel good about who you are, even if you're missing your friends.
I don't have close friends, haven't for years, but I now have myself and my interests and they keep me happy.
By the way, I'm so glad you stopped lurking and decided to leave a comment! Consider me a new friend!
It's not easy being away from friends and family. We moved 400 miles away and it was so hard. Lynne is right, find something that interests you and you'll meet other people. I'm German and opinionated too and I've made friends.LOL!
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